This infertility journey as been very difficult for both me and Cody. We have spend three years now trying to get pregnant. The first year was without doctors, then the doctors, bills, ultrasounds, shots, meds, etc. Some months we "took off" because I need an emotional break. I only have a day or so between when we find out I am not pregnant and starting a new cycle. It is emotionally exhausting. It takes a toll on my relationships with friends and family. I am already prone to some anxiety and depression, so dealing with the emotional roller coster of PCOS and infertility doesn't help my natural tendencies.
So, again, here I am on a journey to weight loss. This time is different though. I am not just wanting to get thinner just because. This time I have a partner in crime! Cody is on board with me! I have had a feeling for a while that if I want to get pregnant I need to lose a lot of weight. I will probably still need to do IVF, but my body would be prepared to carry a baby.
We are working on losing 52 lbs. in 52 weeks. We have decided to go slow and steady, working on this one small goal at a time, one pound a week.
We are praying and working and loving each other and ourselves no matter what happens. I am so used to failing at this same goal that starting again is scary. But, we are focused on a baby, that is so important for us! I want to blog about what we are doing to help me keep focused on my goals. It is always good for me to have an outlet to express myself and hopefully get some support from people.
